What music did for my Selective Mutism - John Lennon



Double Fantasy



'Watching The Wheels'

People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away
Well they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me
When I tell them that I'm doing fine watching shadows on the wall
Don't you miss the big time boy you're no longer on the ball?

I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go

Ah people asking questions lost in confusion
Well I tell them there's no problem, only solutions
Well they shake their heads and look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them there's no hurry I'm just sitting here doing time



Imagine
This was my first John Lennon album, and a good choice for it too.


'Imagine'

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one



'Crippled Inside'
I realized that the way people were acting was just showing off their weaknesses-they were unhappy with themselves, so they had to take it out on me. I knew if I wanted to be happy, I just had to understand that it wasn't my fault other people had a problem with me. If I was happy with myself, everything would work out.

You can wear a mask and paint your face
You can call yourself the human race
You can wear a collar and a tie
One thing you can't hide
Is when you're crippled inside

You can go to church and sing a hymn
Judge me by the color of my skin
You can live a lie until you die
One thing you can't hide
Is when you're crippled inside



'How?'
When I was feeling bad, I thought of the line "Life can be long, and you've got to be so strong, and the world is so tough" and I realized I had to just hold on and be strong, and things would get better.

How can I go forward when I don't know which way I'm facing?
How can I go forward when I don't know which way to turn?
How can I go forward into something I'm not sure of?
Oh no, oh no

You know life can be long
And you got to be so strong
And the world is so tough
Sometimes I feel I've had enough



John Lennon/Plastic Ono Band



'Hold On'

Hold on John, John hold on
It's gonna be alright
You gonna win the fight

Hold on Yoko, Yoko hold on
It's gonna be alright
You gonna make the flight

When you're by yourself
And there's no one else
You just have yourself
And you tell yourself
Just to hold on

Hold on world, world hold on
It's gonna be alright
You're gonna see the light

Oh when you're one
Really one
Well you get things done
Like they've never been done
So hold on



'I Found Out'
This showed me that living by what other people said or did was ruining my own life. Always believing them, believing I was worthless, was causing my problems. I had to stop letting them bother me.

Now that I showed you what I been through
Don't take nobody's word what you can do

I've seen through junkies I been through it all
I've seen religion from Jesus to Paul
Don't let them fool you with dope and cocaine
No one can harm you, feel your own pain



'Working Class Hero'
I was fine with not having friends, because I felt that to make people like you, you had to act like them. How many times do people become friends because they're both making fun of the same person, or maybe they won't stick up for a person because they don't want to be made fun of themselves? I didn't want to be a part of it, and if that meant no friends, then that was ok with me.

There's room at the top they are telling you still
But first you must learn how to smile as you kill
If you want to be like the folks on the hill



'Remember'

If you ever feel so sad
And the whole world is driving you mad
Remember, remember today

And don't feel sorry
About the way it's gone
And don't you worry
About what you've done



Lennon Legend



'Instant Karma!'
The lines "Why on Earth are we here? Surely not to live in pain and fear" made me realize that there had to be something more to life. If that wasn't the reason we live, which it couldn't be because there would be no point for anyone to live, then what was it? I knew happiness was out there somewhere, I just had to find it.

Instant Karma's gonna get you
Gonna knock you right on the head
You better get yourself together
Pretty soon you're gonna be dead
What in the world you thinking of
Laughing in the face of love?
What on earth you trying to do?
It's up to you, yeah you

Instant Karma's gonna get you
Gonna look you right in the face
You better get yourself together darling
Join the human race
How in the world you gonna see
Laughing at fools like me?
Who on earth d'you think you are?
A superstar?
Well, right you are!

Well we all shine on
Like the moon and the stars and the sun
Well we all shine on
Everyone come on

Instant Karma's gonna get you
Gonna knock you off your feet
Better recognize your brothers
Everyone you meet
Why in the world are we here?
Surely not to live in pain and fear?
Why on earth are you there?
When you're everywhere
Come and get your share



'Cold Turkey'
This just made me vow to never take drugs if I got the chance. It was written when John was in withdrawal, after just giving up heroin. I couldn't see putting myself through so much pain on purpose.

Temperature's rising
Fever is high
Can't see no future
Can't see no sky
My feet are so heavy
So is my head
I wish I was a baby
I wish I was dead

Cold turkey has got me on the run

Thirty-six hours
Growing in pain
Praying to someone
Free me again
Oh I'll be a good boy
Please make me well
I'll promise you anything
Get me out of this hell



'Borrowed Time'
I knew John had been through a lot of bad times too, but he says he wouldn't exchange any of it, he just accepted it and got over it. I just knew, especially with the 'good to be older', that someday I would be over my problems of today, that things would be better.

Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow
Living on borrowed time
Without a thought for tomorrow

Good to be older
Would not exchange a single day or a year
Good to be older (You bet)
Less complications, everything clear



Mind Games



'Intuition'
I used the third stanza here in an English paper my first semester of college. The next one, "It's only a condition of seeing things that way", everything is only as good or bad as you see it. If you want to feel sorry for yourself and not be happy, that's only your choice, but you can just as easily choose to see things differently. Every experience is only as 'good' or 'bad' as you make it.

And as I play the game of life
I try to make it better each and every day
And when I struggle in the night
The magic of the music seems to light the way

Intuition takes me there
Intuition takes me everywhere

Well my instincts are fine
I had to learn to use them in order to survive
And time after time confirmed an old suspicion
It's good to be alive

And when I'm deep down and out
And lose communication
With nothing left to say
It's then I realize it's only a condition
Of seeing things that way



'Only People'

Only people know just how to talk to people
Only people know just how to change the world
Only people realize the power of people
A million heads are better than one
So come on, get it on!

Well I know how we tried
And the millions of tears that we cried
Now we are hipper, we been through the trip
And we can't be denied, with woman and man side by side
Make no mistake it's our future we're making
Bake the cake, and eat it too!



Rock 'n' Roll



'Stand By Me'
I knew everything would be alright if I just learned to live by all the lyrics of the songs on these pages.

If the sky that we look upon
should tumble and fall,
and the mountain should crumble to the sea,
I won't cry, I won't cry,
no, I won't shed a tear
just as long as you stand, stand by me.



The Beatles
John Lennon
Paul McCartney
George Harrison
Ringo Starr



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